Let's Blame Me First

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Let’s blame me first—I’ll take the blow,
Before your judgment starts to show.
I’ll hang my head, I’ll play the part,
To prove there’s goodness in my heart.

 

I fear your gaze, your silent scorn,
So I’ll confess before it’s born.
This guilt I wear, this self-made pain,
To shield me from your maybe blame.

 

Guilt’s not truth, it’s just a ploy,
To trade my fear for fake alloy.
I’ll hurt myself to look more kind—
But guilt’s a trick that makes me blind.

 

It isn’t love, it isn’t light,
To dim my voice and kill my sight.
To flee my fear, I’ll criticize,
Myself to save me in your eyes.

 

I thought that guilt would make me clean,
But it just keeps my courage lean.
Afraid of what you’d think or say,
I bend my soul to look okay.

 

Guilt’s not truth, it’s just a ploy,
To trade in fear for fake alloy.
I’ll hurt myself to look more kind—
But guilt’s a trick that makes me blind.

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I beat myself so you won’t dare,
To say I failed or wasn’t fair.
But all the while, I lose my grace,
By fleeing fears that I won’t face.

 

Now I let that guilt fall down,
I will not wear its thorny crown.
I’ll face my fear, I’ll speak it clear—
And find a strength that I revere.

 

Guilt’s not truth, it’s just a ploy,
To trade in fear for fake alloy.
I’ll hurt myself to look more kind—
But guilt’s a trick that makes me blind.