Undoing shoulds: You and your machinery
Until you distinguish you from your machinery
(which is adept at impersonating you),
your power to step into the world of freedom
outside your HOGAB will be limited
Machinery of the mind
You have a mobile phone. But You are not Your mobile phone. You have a hand. But You are not Your hand. You have blood coursing through Your arteries. But You are not the blood coursing through Your arteries. You have automatic feelings. But You are not Your automatic feelings. You speak and think automatically. But You are not Your automatic speaking and thinking. Anything that is automatic is not who You are. You have all of that. All of that automatic stuff is important. You could not function without it. But it pretends to be You. And it believes it is You. But it isn’t. Your machinery has an automatic thought that says, “I am hungry.” Your machinery believes that You were the one who thought that thought, but You didn’t think that thought; Your machinery did. It is masquerading as You. Your machinery automatically said, “I am worried about my future.” Your machinery believes that it is You when it said that. But You are not the worrier. Who are You?
You are the self-conscious chooser and observer. As the self-conscious, self-reflective chooser, whatever You choose (an action or thought) is not chosen automatically. In contrast, my cat is a chooser also. She chooses many things. But her choosing is never self-conscious. It is always automatic. She is 100% machinery, not just 99% as we humans can be. The most important thing you can choose is to watch the automation of Your mind, to watch Your machinery. To notice that You are not Your machinery. To watch it with curiosity and compassion. To watch one part of Your machinery (Your Next) fight with another part of Your machinery (Your Now). To watch a third part of Your machinery (Your Others) fight with still another part of Your machinery (Your Oneself). You can also self-consciously, self-reflectively choose new actions, like Undoing Fear. You can also self-consciously, self-reflectively choose to express gratitude or choose to honor Yourself for something. You can choose to ask Yourself the question, “How can my Next and my Now both be happy in this circumstance?” This is the You that You are.
As long as You do not distinguish yourself from Your machinery, then history will be Your destiny. After You notice that You are not Your machinery and after You start making self-conscious, self-reflective choices (at least time to time) to observe the machinery and, step by step, to “play” with the machinery, then Your future (and present) lies before You as something to create and invent.